not that tomorrow will *actually* be any different than any other tomorrow. More of a marker in time. At least for me. You see, I will carry around 2008's calender in my purse, for the entire year of 2009. Why? Various reasons. To periodically see what I was doing last year. To see if we booked more sessions this March than last. Sometimes just to prove my mom wrong that I was in fact in Tucson more than she recalled (hahahahaha -- you KNOW I love you mama! and you KNOW you love it when I whip that calender out! ahahaha)...but really, I'm not totally sure why. I've done it for YEARS. I guess it makes me feel like I can take a little glimpse into the past with just a few flips of a couple pages. All right there in my purse. To know even what days I was sick (b/c yes. I do write that down -- I forget to make note of the exact day my son took his VERY first steps, but by golly, I can tell you EXACTLY what day I had the flu last year. geez. I really am *that* cool). But back to my point. I think that by carrying that little bit of yesterday with me for a whole entire year lets me see what goals I've met. See what goals I totally forgot about. See which ones I missed. It just serves as a point of reference for me.
I can't totally recall why I even started talking about my crazy gunny sack of a calender. just one of those little rants that just fell out of my
mouth fingers, I guess.
Well, in the spirit of the coming year.....here's a few things that were a bit momentous to me this past year (let me just take a quick gander through said pocket calender...and these are in no particular order..and beware. Its going to be a bit long).
*Took the biggest leap of faith in my life thus far....made the decision to cut our income in half...then in half again..then straight down to nothing to give our everything to this photography business..trusting in God the whole way as we felt Him nudging us along...and carrying me through most of it.
*Felt a deeper love for my husband as he encouraged me and supported me and even picked up a camera and learned to love what I love (sometimes even more than I do) and got crazy good at it.
*Felt a little bit of jealousy towards him for how crazy quick it all came to him..and how crazy good he got at it...totally laced such excitement that we really CAN & WILL do this together.
*Felt so incredibly loved.
*Took note of how incredibly selfless Jon really is.
*Took note of how selfish I kind of am.
*Felt grateful beyond measure for such an amazing husband.
*Went to Disneyland. again.
*Cut hydrogenated oils and high fructose corn syrup almost completely out of our diets.
*Lost 15, almost 20 pounds by doing only that and realized just how much we really are poisoning our bodies with all the junk that's in our food.
*Mourned my best friends' miscarriage. Felt a little like I lost a baby of my very own.
*Discovered that I get optical migraines.
*Went to an amazingly powerful women's retreat.
*Watched Evie perform in her very first dance recital.
*Forgot her tap shoes for dress rehearsal.
*Took a fabulous lake trip in April...not realizing that it would be the last in that beautiful red boat.
*Watched Xander get stitches in his lip at only 19 months old...first kid of ours to get stitches.
*Cried as Hailey graduated from Kindergarten.
*Went to 5th & 6th grade camp.
*Had such an amazingly powerful prayer session with those girls and my step-mother-in-law, who came with me to be leaders for such an amazing group of girls.
*Grew such anticipation for those girls to move into 7th grade so that I would be able to hang out with them more..
*Went to Cali for Junior High Camp.
*Led a girl to Christ and then baptized her in the ocean.
*Felt so incredibly blessed to be His hands and feet in those moments.
*Deepened relationships with the people I serve with in Junior High. Laughed more than I think I ever have in a given week.
*Let my zoo subscription expire.
*Lost a dear family friend.
*Shot an .ever after. session of amazing friends of ours -- hiked all around Phoenix in 120 degree weather. Took note of how incredibly hot Phoenix really is.
*Felt worse for Amy as she was trucking around in a wedding dress ALL DAY.
*Shot our very first wedding. Learned a lot. Felt incredibly grateful of the trust they put into us.
*Felt overjoyed that we were making this dream come true. And to have Jon right beside me, working along side of each other. somebody pinch me.
*Felt encouraged that we were on the right track..
*Saw Jim Gaffigan and ate Tepenyaki.
*Shot two more weddings in one month.
*Felt even more like we were on the right track..
*Went to Callistoga, CA to perform a skit of Christ's love for us.
*Deepened more relationships..and laughed a LOT.
*Shared the gospel with a homeless man named Ralph and gave him my bible.
*Had the most fun Thanksgiving weekend I think I ever have had in all my years.
*Didn't decorate for Christmas...well...we did put up the tree and deck out the front door. But I mean *REALLY* decorate.
*Felt surprisingly okay with it all.
*Never found my star. Cried about it a little.
*Rejoiced as those same best friends welcomed a brand new, very healthy, baby into their lives.
*Went 8 days without checking email the week of Christmas.
*Felt so refreshed to just be. and enjoy Christmas and family and friends.
*Felt ready to get back into full swing and make the most out of our business this coming year.
*Felt beyond blessed for such amazing family & friends, who supported us in all of the craziness of this past year.
*Cried a whole lot.
*Learned to lean on God more than I ever have needed to in the past.
*and found out that I like it that way.
...2008...here's to you. Don't worry, old friend. I'll carry you nestled beside my wallet and pack of stride gum for the next 12 months...
..and two thousand and nine...I welcome 12 new months of trials, joys, firsts, and triumphs. And hopefully a very full, yet very balanced, fresh, crisp calender.
Here's to you too.